Drew: Mom’s Love
I closed and
locked the door, picked up my suitcase and headed to the waiting cab.
I turned once more in the drive and looked back at the house. My
parent’s house, where I had been raised along with my older sister.
After my parent's death in an accident several weeks ago, my sister
and I had decided that I would stay with her for a while, as soon as
my school let out for the summer.
I was a freshman
in college, no major yet, our parent’s death really upsetting me.
Dad was a salesman, so I only saw him on the weekends, Mom, however,
I dealt with every day. I lived at home, the college only a
thirty-minute drive from the house. When not in school I tried to
help her all I could around the house. I guess an adequate
description of me would be a Momma’s boy. I respected her, knowing
what she had put up with over the years for her children.
Dad was alright I
guess, but tended to make life difficult for Mom when things didn’t
go well for him in sales. I don’t think he ever hit her, but the
arguments were loud and often, Dad blaming all his troubles on her.
That is one reason Sis moved out early; she tried to get our Mom to
leave him; since she had also seen how Dad’s actions hurt our Mom.
But Mom couldn’t do it, her home and kids too important to her.
Sis and I had
frequent talks about it, but Mom was determined to keep us as a
family, so she put up with it. So to compensate a little I spent as
much time with her as possible trying to make her life a little
simpler. When Sis came back for the funeral, as soon as I saw her I
came to pieces. Without Mom, I didn’t know what to do. I cried for
days, the funeral was simple, both of my parents wanting nothing
elaborate or expensive. After returning from the funeral Sis put me
to bed, and I instantly fell asleep.
When I did wake
up it was late the next day, I went to the bathroom, then went to
find Sis. She is in the kitchen talking on her cell phone with
someone. I got a glass of orange juice from the refrigerator and sat
down opposite her. From her end of the conversation, I presumed it is
a lawyer, we found out that the driver of the other car was drunk, so
our insurance company suggested that we also file a suit for damages
and wrongful death. She finally hung up and came and hugged me. The
tears started again; I have never cried so much in my life.
She just held me,
hugging me and kissing my face, making soothing noises. Just exactly
what my Mother used to do when I am stressed or disturbed about
something. I finally got it all out; Sis returned to her chair, and
we talked for quite some time. She wanted me to finish out the
semester, four weeks to go, then come and live with her for a while.
I agreed, not wanting to stay in the house any longer than necessary.
In fact, she called one of the only friends I had and talked to his
mother. Greg’s mother offered to let me stay with my friend until
the semester is out.
Greg and I were
neighbors; only a block separated the houses we were raised in.
Friends since grade school we often played together when young, then
during school, we often had the same classes. He never liked school,
so when he graduated from high school, that was the extent of his
education. He had got a job as a mechanic, something he had played
around with since his classes in auto mechanics. We were still
friends, now just with different interests.
While I never
found a girl that was special to me he found one in his freshman year
of high school, and they have been a couple ever since. In fact, they
were planning on getting married this summer if all went as planned.
Sis had to get back to her business out west, so I gathered a few
items and went over to Greg’s house. His Mom welcomed me and showed
me the guest room where I would be staying. We talked for a while,
and she told me that she would help in any way she could.
I resumed school,
having taken several days off because of my parent’s death and
funeral. I performed the tasks needed but in reality, my mind is not
with the program. After a week at Greg’s, I returned home, with his
girlfriend around, there is not much between us anymore. The first
night back home is hard; everywhere I looked memories of my Mom
flooded my mind.
Luckily there
were several projects at school that required my undivided attention,
so I made it through the next couple of weeks without much distress.
When I did have moments with nothing to do, I cleaned house, much
like my mother did when things worried her. I gave away all of Dad’s
clothes to charity, not wanting any reminders of him left around. For
some reason, I kept all of my Mother’s clothes, not sure why, but
the thought of giving them away just too hard to accept.
School ended, and
I closed the house up, both Sis and I thought we would keep the
house, but the memories were still too fresh to deal with at the
moment. I got into the cab and headed into town. We lived a mile and
a half out of town, on a small acreage with very few neighbors.
Greg’s house and three others all within a block or two from our
house, the only other ones in the area. Sis wanted me to fly out to
stay with her, but I always feared flying, so I decided to take the
bus out. It would be a two and a half day trip, but I needed the time
to think what I am going to do with my life.
I wasn’t sure
college was the path I wanted anymore, since my mother’s death I am
not sure what I wanted with my life. I boarded the bus for the long
trip, found a seat and quickly fell asleep. When I woke, we were a
couple of hundred miles from home, the farthest I ever been in my
life. I watched the scenery pass by the window, letting my mind
wander along with the changing landscape.
Two bus changes
later, I am on the final leg of my journey. Sis owns an employment
agency in a medium sized town in northern Arizona. She bought the
business after she had worked for them for a year. Sis was always the
level headed one of the family, saving her money for the important
things in life. When the agency she worked for got into trouble
financially, she was there to offer them a deal. They handled the
financing themselves, and within five months she had paid off the
loan to them. She ran the agency herself for six months, saving in
wages and making a lot of friends in the interim. Most of the people
she placed were quite happy with their new job, and word of mouth
quickly spread. The companies she had placed people with were also
happy, getting qualified applicants for their positions.
The bus pulled
into Flagstaff, a booming town on the high plains of Arizona. Sis is
waiting as I step down from the bus. I walked over to the baggage
area under the bus and waited for my suitcase. After getting
everybody else’s luggage to them, I ask what happened to mine. He
asked for my ticket and then walked into his office to call the
station where I had changed buses the last time. They looked around
and said it was on their dock; they would put it on the next bus; I
should have it tomorrow.
I wasn’t happy;
this is no way to start a new life away from my Mom. Sis led me to
her car, and we drove the ten miles to her agency. We went in, and
since she had an applicant waiting for her, she led me into the
adjoining office while she waited on them. I looked out of the
window; the San Francisco Peaks silhouetted in the background.
Flagstaff is a long and skinny town, built along the old Route 66
highway. That has since turned into Interstate 40, with Interstate 17
from Phoenix, meeting on the outskirts of town. A lot of service
companies reside in the town, the only major town in Northern
Arizona.
The winter brings
the skiers to town, the peaks offering great skiing for the residents
of Phoenix and Tucson. The rest of the year you have the Grand Canyon
a few miles to the North, and of course the hunting season for deer
in the fall on the north rim.
Since Sis has the
only employment agency in town, she gets a lot of business. Her
reputation with both applicants and hiring companies has made her
business really take off. Just this last month she has purchased a
home south of Flagstaff, ten acres with a two story house, a bank
repossession that had been abused by the previous owners. She had a
lot of work done on it, but the little she paid for it made it a real
steal.
She locked up the
agency and decided we needed to eat out tonight. She knew of a little
out of the way restaurant to the south of town, actually on her way
home and we stopped there. I was introduced since she seemed to be a
regular there. Everybody knew her, calling her by name. She told me
what was good, and I ordered. The food is delicious and way more than
I could eat. Sis kidded me; you don’t eat enough to keep a bird
alive, much less a young brother.
She told me she
planned for me just to lay around the house for a few days; then she
had a couple of side trips planned so that I could see the sights.
Maybe Las Vegas, the Grand Canyon, the Painted Desert, and Oak Creek
Canyon just to name a few. I told her that sounded great; we got some
carryout trays and headed home. Her house is impressive, the lights
in the front lighting up both floors quite a sight. Decks both front
and back, and the whole place surrounded by Pines and Junipers. Very
mountain cabin like, but the house far exceeded the size of many
cabins.
We made our way
in, me carrying the bag that I had carried on the bus with me. In
actuality one of Mom’s old shoulder bags, although not as feminine
as some modern day purses. She showed me around, then made us some
hot chocolate, and we set in the living room talking way into the
night. She wanted me to relax, walk around the acreage, watch TV,
anything to relax and try to forget why you are out here. We both
loved Mom, you a lot more than me, but she is gone, probably to a
happier place than here, since she doesn’t have Dad yelling at her
anymore, so concentrate on you for a change. Get connected with the
inner you and try to be happy for a while.
Mom and I have
talked a lot about you; she knew you were hanging around to make her
feel better and make her life easier. She appreciated it but felt you
were denying a big part of yourself in doing so. So no more of that,
this time, is for you, whatever is inside needs to be let out.
Since I didn’t
have any clothes, Sis loaned me a sleep shirt of hers to sleep in.
Not really girly the only clue that it was not intended for a male is
the cute Teddy Bear on the front. Sis had to be up early; she had
three appointments before nine A.M. I made my way downstairs a little
after ten, made some toast then set on the front deck staring at the
landscape. Two hours had passed before I knew it, my tummy growling a
little the only clue I had that the time had elapsed. One piece of
toast does not do much to nourish the body.
I made a sandwich
then set in the kitchen and called the bus station about my missing
luggage. Luckily I got the same guy, he remembered my luggage but
told me it had not arrived yet. He would call the station again and
call me back. An hour later he called back, suggesting that I turn in
a claim for the items in the suitcase since it is obviously lost now.
I asked him what I needed to do; he asked me what was in the
suitcase, and I told him what I had packed. He filled out the claim
form over the phone and sent it in. A check for the items would be
issued, and I should have it within a week. He apologized for the
problem and thanked me for my patience.
With no clothes
to wear, what am I going to do? I scanned Sis’s closet, looking for
anything that didn’t scream female. Not much there, she is
definitely a girly-girl, dresses, skirts and blouses, most with
bright, feminine colors and lace. I closed my eyes about to choose
something to wear. I blushed when I saw what I pulled out, a dark
blue mini skirt, with a chain belt. I pulled a light blue t-shirt to
go with it and laid them on the bed. I picked out some panties,
slipped them on and then put the skirt and t-shirt on. I looked good;
the skirt accented my longer than normal legs, and the shirt gave the
hint of something on top, although I was fairly flat. Now with some
clothes on I looked for something to do. Like our Mom, I decided to
start cleaning. Sis was okay as a housekeeper, but there were spots
she obviously forgot about when she cleaned. Well forgot about or
ignored. One is the upstairs bathroom, three hours later I had it
spotless and appropriately sanitized.
Continuing
through the day, I made my way through the house, making sure all was
neat and clean. I did fix myself another sandwich for a snack, eating
more than I usually do. I checked the contents of the refrigerator
for ingredients to fix for dinner, finding some mashed potatoes, some
gravy, a few pieces of meat. I decided to make Shepherd’s pie,
something Mom often made to stretch the food budget. I opened a can
of green beans and peas to use in the mix, layered it in the dish
with the meat and potatoes, then placed it in the oven to bake.
Sis is on time,
arriving a little after five. She took one look at me and then
giggled. “You do look nice; maybe those clothes should be utilized
instead of buying you new ones. I take it your luggage is lost since
you have raided my closet.” I looked down at my feet, but she would
have none of that. She raised my chin making me look into her eyes. I
love my sibling, no matter what clothes are worn by him/her.
Personally, I think that the outfit is adorable, much nicer than you
have worn in the past.
I told her to
change; dinner is ready. I got the look, but she skipped off to
change anyway. A few moments later she entered the kitchen, dressed
more casual and sat down at the table. “I see you have been busy,
the house has never looked better; I now understand why Mom liked
your help around the house. Just remember you are not out here to
clean my house, you are to take some time for yourself, to figure out
what you want to do.”
She took a bite
of the shepherd’s Pie and let out a low moan. “I could get used
to this, a clean house and the best food I have had since I left Mom.
I see you have been taught well, can you cook other things also?” I
nodded my head yes, and we were quiet as she annihilated a good
portion of the pie. I had hoped to make two meals maybe out of the
pie, but now that was not possible. I ate a little more than usual
for me; I enjoyed being around Sis, not realizing till now how much I
missed her.
I did the dishes
quickly, then got out the pan of brownies I had mixed up. When Sis
saw them, she groaned but made a beeline for the pan. Another moan as
she took her first bite, then she hauled off and hit me on the
shoulder. I asked what that was for; she giggled you are going to
make me fat at this rate. “I am going to have to join the gym to
keep my shape.”
I had made some
iced tea, and we each took a glass of it into the living room, of
course, Sis had another square of the brownies in her other hand. We
set on the love seat overlooking the front deck, a beautiful panorama
of the setting sun through the trees in front of us. We talked for a
while, she asked if I know how to do anything but clean? She is
giggling as the last of that left her mouth. I told her I was fairly
good on the computer, was literate in Office and Word. She asked if I
could type, I told her yes, but only about forty words a minute.
I asked her how
her business is going; she is proud of it, but she knows in this town
it will never be a stable thing. Once you fill the open jobs, there
are very few new ones popping up, the town growing, but never to the
degree of Phoenix or Tucson. It will always be a tourist town, and a
ski resort town in the winter. A one person operation except for a
few letters of reference or resumes typed up on occasion.
She has had
another idea in her mind for quite some time; maybe she will look
into it more in the near future. Since I had the house cleaned what
am I planning to do for the next few days? I didn’t know, really
hadn’t thought about it. She asked if I was ready to buy some male
clothes since mine were no longer. I hesitated, she smiled, you can
wear some of mine, you look better in them than I do. I tried to
protest some, but she hushed me. Mom has mentioned to me that you
often wore some of hers, a fact that I am sure you didn’t think Mom
knew about.
She asked if I
kept Mom’s clothes, my face turning red an answer I am sure she
already knew. She told me to call Mildred, Greg’s Mom and tell her
to pack all of them up and she will arrange for a trucking company to
pick them up. I made an attempt to tell her, no, but I really wanted
her clothes, so I just turned a brighter red and never made eye
contact with her. Sis told me since we were all about the same size
we could share the clothes. She told me to tell her no underwear; it
is not good to share underwear among other females, so that could be
thrown away. I will send her a check for her trouble and then ask her
for the spare key back.
I know you are
still in love with the house, but I think too many sad memories still
exist for either of us to eventually go back there. I think we ought
to sell it, take the money and start a future for you out here. Think
about it; no decision has to be made now, maybe in a few weeks.
The next day I
made the call, Mildred glad to do the deed, I told her if there were
some things that she particularly liked for her to take them. I told
her the underwear gets trashed, and that we are going to try and sell
the house. She told me that her sister is looking in the area for a
house and if I didn’t mind she would show her the house later
today. I told that is fine if she is interested for her to call my
sister and gave her the number to the agency.
I called the
trucking lines that Sis had given me the names of and asked for the
rates to ship the boxes out here. I made a guess about the number of
the boxes, but I am sure I came fairly close to the actual number. I
arranged for one to pick up the boxes the first of next week, they
would be in transit for five days, so we should have them Friday or
Saturday. The one I ended up selecting had the best rates and offered
the fastest turnaround of the companies I called.
With that handled
I decided to do some exploring of the property, maybe do a little day
dreaming if I could find the right spot. The land dropped off from
the little plateau that the cabin was built on, the woods pretty
thick back there. I found a small twisting trail that led into a
clearing that had a small pond setting in the middle of it. The
stream that fed it was small, winding down from the other side of the
small canyon, then into the small pond. From the edge of the pond,
the stream reemerged and wandered further down the canyon.
I called it a
stream, in reality, it is only three to four feet wide, maybe only
running during the rainy season. There are several trees growing
along the edge of the pond, making the scene peaceful and beautiful.
I found a rock outcropping near the entrance of the stream, parked
myself and scanned the scenery. This is all hidden from the cabin,
although only three hundred feet from the back door. I set there for
several hours watching the birds and squirrels playing at the water’s
edge.
Reluctantly I
headed back to the cabin, figuring that it is time to start dinner. I
had seen some frozen hamburger patties in the freezer, envisioning a
tall juicy hamburger tonight along with some French Fries. Sis had
some bakery rolls, so I cut them and buttered them, planning to toast
them later in the oven. I cooked the patties in a skillet, while I
cut up the onion, tomato, and lettuce to place on them. I found some
Swiss cheese in the refrigerator, along with all the accouterments
necessary to make the burger taste good. The oil for the French fries
was hot, and I lowered the fries into it. I turned on the broiler to
toast the buns and as the fries finished Sis made it through the
door.
She sniffed the
air, embraced me, telling me the smell is heavenly. I told her to
change; dinner is ready, but apparently, the smell is too
overpowering, so she just sat down and started digging in. She told
me that she got a call this afternoon, from Mildred’s sister and
they loved the house. They made us an offer on the house, but you
know what sealed the deal is how clean the house was. She and Mildred
walked the entire house and found not a speck of dirt or dust
anywhere in the house. Anyway, the offer is quite generous, and I
have accepted it. My lawyer here is drawing up the papers, and we
complete the deal at the end of next week.
I know you are
reluctant to sell the house, it is Mom’s prized possession, but Mom
is gone, and she wants both of us to be happy, especially you. When
her stuff gets here there is something in her jewelry box she wanted
you to have, I think it will convince you how much she loved you,
your caring and attention appreciated so much by her.
I cleaned up
after dinner, washed the dishes, then Sis, and I set down on the rear
deck. I told her of the little pond, behind the house, the squirrels
and the birds playing there all afternoon. She had never walked back
there, too busy and too lazy to check into things. Now that I am here
maybe we can find some time to enjoy things more.
She had brought
home a large file from her office of correspondence, letters of
reference, and job specification sheets from the employers. She also
had brought a new computer home; she wanted me to set it up in the
room she used for an office and retype all of the letters and
correspondence in the file. If all goes well, she wants to start a
secretarial service here in town. I could work from home, emailing or
faxing the processed documents to them. She thinks there is enough
small businesses in town that need the service every once in a while,
to make it profitable.
After I try it,
she will run an ad in the local paper to drum up some business, if I
am interested. It sounded good, something to occupy my time, but also
maybe earning me a few dollars. It took me most of the evening to set
up the new computer including internet access and some virus
protection. I typed the first letter, making a mistake or two, but it
looked good after they were corrected and printed on the printer she
had purchased to go with the computer.
I kind of lost
track of time as I typed away, my sister finally coming to get me to
go to bed. It was fifteen minutes after midnight, and I had been busy
at it for over three hours. As I was getting into some pajamas, Sis
was looking at the items that I had typed up. She saw where I had
typed up all the items but two, those last two fairly lengthy. When I
returned ready for bed, she asked if I liked the work. I told her it
was easy to get involved, much like cleaning a house. You started and
soon time has sped by. I told her I thought it would work if she
could drum up some business.
We went to bed
after she made sure that I could deal with selling Mom’s house. I
liked it out here much better, so even though I still had some
attachment to it, it would be for the better. I laid in bed for a
while just staring out the window at the shadows of the landscape.
The moon is up, and the pine needled shadows of a few branches were
casting themselves on the bedroom wall. It indeed is a more peaceful
place, a connection to something more significant than lost memories.
The next morning
I had made some toast and sausage patties for her, and of course
coffee. She asked me to set up email accounts for my work, one for
the public and one for her to use to contact me at home. Then if I
was ambitious, maybe a simple website listing what things I would be
able to do for customers. She would do some research on what I could
charge for performing the services, and we could decide tonight on
the prices I would charge.
I again raided my
sister’s closet for something to wear, even though the male clothes
I wore here had been cleaned and hanging in my closet. I selected an
outfit, trying to pick something that would look coordinated, but
comfy to wear. It ended up being a pair of pants, almost bell
bottoms, and a tank top, both in muted shades of peach. I found a
scarf that had peach colors in it but was quite colorful and bright
with bold colors. That tied around my neck made the outfit perfect. I
even tried some of her lipstick; it did require me several
applications before I got it looking right. I used to be good at
coloring when I was a kid but now the simple task of staying within
the lines of my lips seemed difficult.
The day
progressed quickly; email accounts the easiest to obtain. I used
Gmail accounts; widely used and easy to set-up. The website was a
little more difficult since I had never done one. I got the domain
name from one of the major providers, purchased it and followed their
instructions on how to put it together. It wouldn’t be active until
later tonight, but I had the basics together. Tonight the only thing
I could find for dinner was some frozen everything in one bag, one
skillet meals. Mom on occasion had used some of these, her secret to
making it taste like something is the spices. She had taught me well,
sampling it as I added the different spices until it tasted decent.
Tomorrow would
require a trip to the grocery store; there was just not anything left
to make any meals out of. Her spices were limited and most out of
date. I threw out three bottles full as I had prepared tonight’s
dish, the spice obviously spoiled. Sis was impressed, she ate more
than half of it herself, promising me that we would join the gym on
Saturday, her to keep trim and me as a punishment for being too good
a cook.
The next morning
I was getting ready to go with Sis to work so that I could borrow the
car to grocery shop. I had on some of my male clothes, but just the
few days that I had been wearing my sister’s things I got spoiled.
I yanked my male things off and put on what I had picked last night
from her closet. Some lipstick and I was ready. I never thought of me
being a male that I should not be dressing in her clothes. They fit
me, were comfortable and I looked good in them so I continued to wear
her clothing.
We drove to her
work and went in. There had been several people outside waiting to
see her, so as she was handling her first customer, I tried to help
the others. Both had never been to the agency, so I had then fill out
the proper forms. Sis kept a list of available jobs on the office
computers, so I looked through them trying to match the applicant’s
qualifications with the available employment. I had gotten them each
a soft drink when they came in and had them waiting for when she was
through.
When her first
customer left, I took the completed form into her office, along with
the job most likely to fit their qualifications. I could see Sis
staring at me, but before she could say anything I showed the
applicant into her office. Another forty minutes Sis was through with
that one, and I did the same with the last applicant. This one had
two job listings that she qualified for, so I laid the appropriate
paperwork down on her desk. I told her that I had called both of
those employers to make sure the positions are still open. I got a
big smile, then I closed her office door and went back to cleaning
the office.
The applicant
apparently got one of the jobs, leaving the office all excited and a
huge smile on her face. Sis came out and hugged me, where have you
been all my life. Tomorrow we are moving your computer here, and you
are now my secretary, no make that my PA. I giggled a little but knew
deep down that I now had fit in with something, no longer an outcast,
and a misfit. Maybe this will all work out, after all.
The rest of the
day is similar to this morning, several applicants appearing, even a
couple of college students needing a part time job. I searched her
job listings, matching up prospective jobs with the applicant. One of
the applicants had no job listing matches, so I called a couple of
the firms that had listed other jobs, telling them I had an applicant
with her qualifications. One had no openings, but liked her
qualifications. The other wanted to talk to her, an employee that was
leaving later in the month, needed to be replaced. When I told Sis of
what I had done I got an eager hug, then a cheek kiss. The applicant
was behind me so she couldn’t show me any more signs of her
appreciation.
At the end of the
day she had placed five of the six applicants, even getting one of
the college students a part-time job. I had called a bunch of places,
and several of them had not got back with me, they were appreciative
that I had called and told them of my applicants and their
qualifications. They would let me know if there was any vacancies. I
set up a separate file listing the student and their experience, so
that when I got a call I could match one of them up.
That night I
ordered some pizza to be delivered, a place that one of the
applicants had told me about. They had worked there briefly, said the
pizza was excellent, which ones were the best and what not to order.
After Sis and I had annihilated the pizza I would have to agree with
them, the empty box a sure sign of a delicious pizza. I mean not even
a crumb was left in the box.
I managed to take
the computer down, the one that I had just set up the night before. I
loaded it in her car ready to take it to the office tomorrow and
reassemble it. We decided I would only work until three, do my
grocery shopping, then swing back by the office to pick her up. We
had several more applicants from the local college, word spreading
about her getting one of them a part time job. Apparently jobs in
this town for a student were very scarce. I made a lot more cold
calls that afternoon advertising that we had many experienced
students needing employment and that we could match their needs to
the proper applicant.
I managed to find
three more students jobs, a fact for which Sis is very grateful for.
The fees she got even for a part-time job would help pay the bills.
The employers were happy because they didn’t have to interview or
worry if the applicant they chose could perform the work.
For the day I had
dressed again in my sister’s clothes. They felt right and I liked
how I looked in them. Today was a light rose shirtwaist dress, some
stockings and a pair of her heels. Of course some light makeup, my
hair in a ponytail. The grocery shopping went quicker than I had
intended, so I managed to get the food home and put away. I put a
roast on to bake, added potatoes and onions, plus some fresh celery
stems. Although the celery would cook down to nothing, the flavor it
added more than worth the addition of it.
When I got back
the office was full, my sister very glad to see me. I took each
applicant, had then fill out the proper forms, matched jobs to their
qualifications and then handed them over to Sis. I found three more
college students part-time jobs on my own, Sis too busy helping ones
to find full time jobs. It turned out to be almost six-thirty before
we were able to head home. The roast was done, so I served it up and
Sis almost finished it off by herself. After she was done she hit me
on the arm, I looked at her, “Why did you hit me again?”
“Cause you are
going to make me fat, we are stopping at the gym tomorrow at lunch,
if I don’t you might be the only one that can fit into my clothes.”
True to her word we did stop and both of us joined the gym. I had not
thought it through very well, my dress that day very feminine, plus
the lipstick that I wore, the gal at the gym presumed me to be
female. I had not checked the gender box, but as she was looking over
my application she did it for me. The realization hit me when we
headed to the car, I was signed up as a female, now only able to use
the female side of the gym.
Sis had watched
the proceedings, never saying a word to me, as we left she told me
that what happened was the best option. I will look into getting you
a gender change, you might just as well be female and be happy, then
suffer as a male. I turned and looked at her, fear in my face. “You
can get somebody to cut it off, what if I want to keep it.”
“Let’s face
it even if you could keep it, I doubt it would ever be used. I have
never seen anyone more attuned to the female gender then you. Let’s
take the next step, a set of breasts might be nice, helping to fill
out your dresses and blouses better. After Mom’s clothes get here,
we need to see what might be appropriate for you to wear, then shop
to fill in your wardrobe. I can’t have a dumpy looking PA in my
employ, can I?”
Two days later
the boxes of clothes showed up, I tried them all on and made my
selections of what looked best on me. I made sure they were all
washed and hung them in my closet. Mom’s jewelry box was included
in the boxes, something I forgot about but Sis remembered and had
Mildred pack it among the clothes. I opened the drawers carefully,
her jewelry was her prized possession. In one of the drawers was her
diamond earrings, a gift from her Mother. Along with the earrings was
a note, addressed to me.
Drew
For all of the
things you have done for me over the years, take these earrings as a
gift from me. Wear them proudly and often, thinking of me as you do
so. I know you had your ears pierced in high school, so they will
look gorgeous on you. A gift from a Mother to her youngest daughter,
who have made my last few years so enjoyable.
Love Mom
After I quit
crying I put on the earrings, looking in the mirror at my reflection.
A huge smile lit up my face, then I finished going through her
clothes. My one set of male clothes found their way to the trash can,
I was sure I would never need or desire them again. I ended up
keeping all but three of Mom’s dresses and all but two of her
skirts.
Sis’s business
continued to improve, even a few people from the surrounding towns
were using her services. When we got the first ones from out of town
I made calls to the companies in those towns offering our services
and finding out if they needed immediate help. References were given
so that they could check us out, to see that we only supplied well
qualified applicants for any job. It was only a few days later when
we placed our first applicants in those towns, now Sis was supplying
employment help along I-40, eighty miles in each direction.
My job became
routine, even a few of the locals recognizing me on the street and
saying hi. Her business continued to grow both in placing employees
in jobs and as a secretarial service. During most days I was
constantly busy, either trying to place employees or typing up
something for someone.
Sis and I did get
out and do some shopping, her P.A, never looking better in her new
ensembles. Sis usually closed the business around Christmas for a
couple of weeks, a time to squeeze in a vacation or take a trip
somewhere. This time it was used for her P.A. to get a set of
breasts. The salon did the work, six hours of a pump sucking the
breasts from my chest. I was so proud of them walking around with my
chest pushed out as far as I could manage. Sis seeing me and breaking
out in uncontrollable giggles. I did join her, I was acting like a
child proud of her new toys. The thing was I was proud of them, the
last missing part of the puzzle. I thought back to Mom, she would be
thrilled to see me happy, such a simple thing as getting breasts
making me complete. Since sis used some of the money from selling the
house, it was truly a treasured gift showing Mom’s love for me. .
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2024 by Francesca